A Late Dinner in Half Moon Bay

by nina on November 6, 2012

intuitive eating at nightLast night I went out for a late dinner with my friend Brian.

I am staying at his place for a few weeks because of all the madness in New York due to the Sandy Hurricane. Plus he has an awesome house and I love the sunshine here!

But back to dinner.

It was late, Brian had been out working all day and we had to find a place to eat. Now this is a small town and everything closes early. The only thing that was open was a Mexican place.

I am not really a big fan of Mexican food, but I was hungry – we both were – so we ordered a lot of food!

We talked, ate, laughed, shared our experiences about our relationships, break ups, among other things.

By the time we got up to leave I realized how full and bloated I felt. I almost felt sick from all the food – and especially as it was a type of food that I don’t normally eat.

We kept talking and laughing as we were walking home, so I forgot about the food and my bloated stomach for a while.

But when I was alone and about to go to bed, I started to focus on my bloated stomach and it really annoyed me.

Then I remembered that I used to feel this way all the time just over 7 years ago and this is what I would generally do:

  1. Either throw up, take laxatives, go across the road to the 24 hour gym (yes there was one there)
  2. Feel like absolute shit about myself, make a decision to go on a 7 day juice fast
  3. Eat even more because I would start a “new diet” tomorrow – and exercise like crazy, so I may as well make the most of my “last dinner”

And do you know what would inevitably ALWAYS happen?

Within 2-3 days (at the most) I would be binge eating again, throwing up, fallen off the diet or cleanse, exhausted and moody from the exercise burnout, obsessed with food and unable to enjoy my time at Half Moon Bay. I would have woken up this morning and made myself go through an excruciating workout, plan out my food, be disgusted with myself and my body and angry at Brian for making me eat so late and such “bad” food.

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However, that is NOT how I roll today and here is what I actually did.

I woke up, remembered it was my Mum’s birthday. I sent her a text message and instructions to my brother about the present to get for her.

I had a coaching call client and was present for her; listened to everything she had to say, empathized with her, gave her some great tools to use for her recovery and loved every minute of our time together.

I just saw Brian as he was running off to the gym, we had a laugh, a quick chat and I got back to writing this email.

Later I am going to the beach to create some videos with my iPhone to send to you guys and some for my personal use.

I will eat whatever I feel like when I get hungry. I do not feel hungry at the moment, but when I do, I will eat exactly what I want. I have no idea what that is, and it does not matter

My clothes fit exactly the same way that they did yesterday

I love my body

The only reason I even remember the dinner is because I wanted to tell you guys the story and show you the power of recovery, complete freedom from all eating disorders and why intuitive eating works.

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Now tell me, have you had a similar experience? Maybe it was even last night as well?

What meaning are you going to give it – that you are disgusting, shameful and awful for feeling bloated and full? Or that it is just something that happened because you are in a different place, perhaps your body doesn’t react well to that type of food and that it’s over.

And then what are you going to today based on the meaning that you gave to the experience?

So tell me, what are you going to do today? You have a choice. The choice that you make will determine how your day looks today.

What will you choose?

 

Nina

 

P.S Just a reminder that today is the final day to sign up for my Elite Coaching Program – where you get the absolute best of everything I have created. This is a one off Program that I have never offered before and will not be running again. There are a few spots left – so get in now. Get all the details and info about this one off, everything included and personalized coaching.

P.P.S Don’t ever forget this – no matter what anyone tells you – you CAN recover completely from all eating disorder, be an intuitive eater and live with complete freedom. That’s a promise. I am living proof. If you want it, you CAN have it. The choice is yours.

P.P.P.S This is the choice I am making today… See pic!

beach at half moon bay

Nina Vucetic

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Nat November 10, 2012 at 3:55 pm

Nina, I did feel pretty related with this story, because it has happened to me a lot of times too. Last time was the other weekend I guess, I went to eat sushi with my mother for dinner too. I LOVE sushi, so I asked for 6 diliciuos rolls I read in the menu, I ate them and was already FULL, stuffed, and my mother, who actually LOVE food so much, saw another 6 rolls she liked in another table of the place, so she asked for them to the guy who was taking the orders, I had told her that I was not going to eat anything else, but when I saw those other 6 rolls infront of me…OMG! They looked as delicious or even more than the ones I had eaten before…I couldn’t resisted myself and ate 3 of them…I felt so guilty after that, terribly guilty actually. So I didn’t know how to deal with that, and I tried to focus on another things and spend part of that night reading and etc…
But I still remember those last delicious 6 rolls, lol x_X

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nina November 11, 2012 at 12:47 am

Hi Nat,

In the big scheme of things – it makes NO difference whatsoever.
It is the obsession, guilt, shame and remorse that makes the problem worse and throws us into either binge eating, starving, another diet that will fail, etc etc…

The best way it to just “let it be” and move on!

One meal does not make you fat or affect your path to recovery. it is the thoughts that we attach to it that cause the damage

Love Nina x0

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Jennifer November 8, 2012 at 2:21 pm

This is a great story Nina, something I can relate too very much. Sometimes I feel like I’ve overeaten, I may feel too full, possibly a bit sick or maybe just the food I’ve eaten didn’t agree with me. But instead of obsessing over it, I accept thats how I’m feeling, I don’t beat myself up. & I move on with my day.
🙂 xx

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nina November 11, 2012 at 12:45 am

That is absolutely perfect jennifer!

Obsessing over it and making ourselves feel guilty just exacerbates the problem.

Keep moving forward, and remember that we can start our day at any time. We can focus on all of the POSITIVE things that we are doing and take the power away from the eating disorder.

Love Nina

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